2024 goals

A slightly less regular series in the “year end/new year” stable of posts, you can read past attempts at setting professional goals here: 202320202019, and 2018.

Actually do some professional development
It’s on everyone’s work plan every year, and it always seems to fall off the bottom (followed quickly by research and actual specimen curation). I’ve a few ideas, but as usual I think I’ll struggle to find the time.

Apply for the next “Big Grant”
My current “big grant” ends in 2025, so time to start thinking about what comes next. A few irons in the fire, but as with all these things, the hot-iron-to-roaring-bonfire pipeline is rarely provident.

Visit 3 new UK museums
I have a long list of about 17 UK collections that I want to visit, spread all over the four countries. And I actually have a small budget to do it!

Sort photos
I have so many unsorted (print) (personal) photos that are in desperate need of curation. There’s something about home/work balance here, but goodness this needs to happen.

A book?
One of my 2023 work objectives was to think about a book proposal. It’s still in my mind, but needs to jump ahead.

Say no
Always a regular thought, and often sometime about August I turn on the “no” switch for the rest of the calendar year. With this glut of work-related travel this year (I count 6 international trips at the moment) I think it will be a year of wrapping up existing things unless something truly exceptional comes along.

2023 by the numbers

You can find previous “By The Numbers” posts here: 202220202019201820172016201520142013. I didn’t do one in 2021. Wow, that’s a lot of numbers.

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The number of emails sent, professionally, this year. Second lowest since I started tracking! Hopefully it’ll stay below the 6k mark in 2024.

1043
This year’s citation count. I wouldn’t normally include something like that, but it’s notable in that it’s the first time it’s been lower than the year before (1152). I guess I’ve plateaued!

18
The number of new papers this year. A stellar effort made easy by amazing collaborators and colleagues. Everything from storm-petrels used as candles to machine learning and automated counting of plastics, with a healthy dose of collections-based research (Tristan Moorhen eggs, species status for the Hanuman Plover (Charadrius seebohmi), and a new early record of Slender-billed Curlew for present-day Israel.

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Field trips this year – Lord Howe Island (twice), Caithness, and Nunatsiavut. All with wonderful hosts/colleagues, and lots of laughter, smiles, and conversations.

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Museums visited this year. Cambridge, Oxford, Melbourne, La Rochelle, and Liverpool. Still a fair few on my hit list for the year ahead (Hoping to get to New York, Sydney, and Edinburgh, and maybe a few smaller near(ish) England collections). It’s always a joy

2
The number of postdocs in our team that have moved on to PERMANENT jobs this year! As a PI/manager/supervisor, that’s the ultimate win.

95
Distance (in km) running this year. Not brilliant, if I’m honest. But it’s better than nothing. Next year’s goal is to break 100 km.

4.1
My mood score, out of 5, averaged over the year. Ever since August 2020 when I started medication for depression, I’ve tracked my mood just before bed each night, and listed the 3 daily “highlights”. I’ve been off meds for about 18 months now, and this feel like a win. Apparently Fridays were my best days (go figure), and January 2023 was my best month (which was rather surprising!).

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Professional social media platforms. This blog (who even blogs any more?!) came out of the strong Canadian science twitter/blogosphere in 2012/13 so it’s always had a strong twitter-based readership. With Mastodon and Blue Sky now on the scene (and twitter really becoming a place I find myself spending less time) it feels a bit like the wonderful online networks we built are being lost or fragmented. I’m sure if I was a postdoc now (vs a decade ago) my online experience would be much diminished.

Here’s to a healthy, happy, and harmonious 2024!

2023 year in review

Hello? *taps mic* Is this thing on?

Judging by my complete lack of activity and the fact that readership had plummeted to record lows, the answer may well be “no”. But hey ho, it’s a fun thing to do, look back at the year that was.

I think if there was a theme for the year, it was “tired”. The return of pre-covid work patterns and expectations (including travel) and grappling with the fine balance between helping others and guarding my own time. Never an easy one.

Professional highlights were definitely time spent in Nunatsiavut and Australia for field work (and some R&R mixed in, with appropriate doggos). They were (mostly) the right mix of long days and time to recover.

Looking back at the goals (I use the term loosely) I set 12 months ago, it’s the usual mixed bag.

  • Clear my 3 oldest projects – Well, nope. Made decent progress on one, though. Hopefully 2024!
  • Keep track of time – yep! My daily routine now includes a wrap up for tracking roughly how much time I spent in some broad categories, and plotting out the next day’s work. That’s a win.
  • Spend some time thinking – uhhh… about that. Professional life has been far to frenetic, and demands from collaborators (who, if you are reading this, are lovely!) and other outside pressures meant this didn’t happen at all, really. Sigh.
  • Decide if 2 big projects are worth it – one was. The other… is mostly parked.
  • Increase queerness – I think we’re still operating at baseline levels, though I did give a talk at UCL on queering science in November. It’s just tough to do with straight collaborators (sorry folks)
  • Find 7 new dinners – pasta primavera, sausage bake, quiche with parma and cheese, a lovely asparagus and feta tart, and… I think that’s it? Not too shabby.

We’ll see what the year ahead has. I’ve got some ideas though looking at my travel schedule, my annual “saying no” cutoff is going to rapidly move forward (perhaps to January 1st).

Happy holidays!

2023 goals

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In January 2018, I started noting down some goals I had for the year ahead, both professional and personal. My last post in this category was January 2020, and we all know how well the intervening years went in terms of long-term planning. Ooft. You can read the 2020, 2019, and 2018 editions.

So with the blog seemingly back, why not revive this fools errand of prognosticating about what the year ahead will have in store!

Clear my 3 oldest research projects

These all stem from my postdoc in Saskatchewan from 2011-2014. I got one off the books this year, and have 3 others I’d like to try and wrap up. All the data are there, it’s just a case of slotting them in to my precious research time.

Keep track of time

In my last few years at RSPB (2014-2017), I had a fairly good system for tracking my (approximate) time on projects, which was needed for some grant funding we had. It also served as a useful barometer to see how much time I spent on admin, in the field, or managing my team. I want to have a better handle on how I use my work time in 2023.

Spend some time thinking

I have a couple of projects that need some proper deep thinking time. It’s rare these days that I get more than an hour (two at the most) of time for a task, so I’m hoping some time working from home, in residency at St Nicholas’ in Leicester, or during quiet spells in the field will be useful.

Decide whether two Big Projects are worth it

There are a couple of larger project ideas bouncing around my head (and the heads of a few close confidantes), but they’d require a major amount of work and reprioritisation of time so I want to decide if one or both (or neither!) is actually on the cards fairly soon in to the year.

Increase queerness

This isn’t just a professional blog, after all! Over the pandemic I became more comfortable in my queerness and started to move towards the me I wanted. More on this in 2023 for sure.

Find 7 new dinners

In 2020, we did a major overhaul of our dinner meal options, and the result was a nice selection of new and different things. Time to add some more spice to the mix, so suggestions for quick (<40 mins), cheap, common-ingredient dinners that aren’t “meat, potatoes, and veg” gratefully received in the comments!

Here’s to a happy, successful, and prosperous 2023!

2022 by the numbers

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You can find previous “By The Numbers” posts here: 2020, 2019201820172016201520142013. I didn’t do one in 2021.

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Years I’ve been in this job as the curator in charge of birds at the Natural History Museum. It’s going well! Though to be honest, I still feel like the “new kid” sometimes.

9

Papers published this year. Not a huge output compared to previous years, and certainly a lot of what some might call “smaller” papers or collaborative work where I wasn’t the lead. Given my role isn’t research-focused, though, I’ll take it. Albatross, diving petrels, gulls, penguins, COVID PPE, shearwaters (of course), and curlews! And a paper I’m really proud of pushing back against the idea that plastic pollution is a “distraction”, and a brilliant review on seabirds transporting all sorts of things from the sea back to land.

2

Trips back to Australia! It was lovely to get back to see the lovely shearwaters on Lord Howe, and to spend time with amazing friends and colleagues on Lord Howe, and in Sydney, Hobart, and Albury.

30

Years between my time spent in Labrador. I grew up there, but moved south in 1992. In 2022 I returned and made my first visit to Nunatsiavut where we’re doing some really exciting work on plastics in country foods (which I assure you are all delicious!).

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Tattoos! I’ve wanted one for ages, and a couple of years ago a good friend designed a Joy Division-esque topo map of Qisxa/Kiska, the island where I did my PhD. It sits very nicely on my right forearm. Plans for a second are under development!

Too little

Time off this year. I struggled to use my 27 days of annual leave, and accrued an obscene amount of TOIL this year. I’m generally rubbish at taking time off and that’s going to change in 2023.

715

The number of days The Lab and Field has been in dormancy. Brought out by being locked out of twitter, and with an increasingly awful environment there, I remembered that I had a blog! And could post things! That people could read! And I could block TERFs with literally no consequences! How novel! It feels like 2012 all over again. Still unsure how I’ll operate in 2023.

If you’re the goal-setting type, tune in tomorrow for what I hope 2023 will have in store.

Thanks for reading, friends. It’s kind of nice to be back.

Reflections on a decade of twittering

In January 2013, I was a postdoc, about 18 months through what would be a 36-month position with Environment (and Climate Change) Canada in Saskatoon, Saskatchewan. It was the heady days of Stephen Harper’s premiership in Canada, noteworthy for his right-wing anti-evidence, death-by-a-thousand-cuts approach to public services, and the muzzling of government scientists (where to speak, sometimes even at a conference, was highly regulated from high up the civil service). The blogosphere was taking off in new and exciting ways, and being the only person in my lab group, I found it a bit isolating. I’d had a personal twitter account since 2009, so thought to make a professional one that was, at first, pseudonymous because I could then be a bit outspoken about federal science policy. And so my twitter handle, and this blog, “The Lab and Field” was born.

Back then, there was 140 characters, including links, usernames, and images. We had to manually shorten links with bit.ly, and you would retweet by copying/pasting and prefacing the tweet with “RT @username:”, with suitable abbreviations added to conform to the now shorter text length. Hearts were stars. There was no green circle, and few corporate entities were present. Heady days indeed.

We lobbied for the Experimental Lakes Area, the Polar Environmental and Atmospheric Research Lab, adequate funding to NSERC, SSHRC and CIHR, and bemoaned the job market, much of which I also documented here (just browse the archive, which now stretches back a decade!). During my masters, I was rather active on the PhD Comics forum (or phorum), a bulletin board-style community that I don’t think even exists now. A number of us made the shift to twitter at about the same time, and so some of the reverence and general ECR complaining (rightly so!) came with.

It was where I first really encountered other LGBTQ+ folks in STEM, and in ornithology(!), which also built the foundation for what would become LGBTQ+ STEM and the STEMinar. That was truly life-changing and wouldn’t have happened without twitter. It fostered collaborations, brought partners together for funding proposals, and resulted in at least one paper.

For me, I’d say my general enjoyment of twitter peaked in about 2018 or so. That’s not to say it was all good all the time, but that since then, it’s been in slow decline and I’d been disengaging more and more (even before I was locked out). The rise of TERFs and literal nazis, and the increasingly awful UK political discourse that dominated my timeline in the last few years, along with some increasingly tone-deaf posts from folks I respected were signalling the end, in hindsight.

I remember a conversation in about 2017 or 2018 with a PhD student friend of mine about twitter, and how disillusioned they were becoming with it, and worrying about unfollowing or blocking someone they found annoying but who had a Big Following in Science Twitter™. My advice was to curate a feed for themselves, and it’s probably the best advice even today. Mute, block, and unfollow to your heart’s delight. A general (and over-generalizing) observation was that anyone with more than about 15k followers was better muted than followed.

But like all text-based methods of communication (or indeed ANY method of communication), it’s imperfect and when things got heated, it’s easy to misinterpret intent or motive (or just assume for that matter). That ruined some relationships with folks that I respected and supported for years. I was certainly blocked and muted by more than a few folks, and it stings the first few times, especially when it seemingly comes out of the blue.

If we’ve followed each other, then I’m still about online (mastodon.social/@TheLabAndField) and easily google-able if you don’t want another social media platform.

Lament for the decline and likely demise of twitter. It was a force for good, but also for not-good. It changed the way we communicate, as people and as scientists. It brought us together, but increasingly drove us apart.

This will auto-post to twitter, so if you came from there, a reminder that I’m locked out and unlikely to return so won’t see any comments unless I go looking for them intentionally (which I do not intend to do).

Farewell Twitter

Alas, the ongoing crumbling of Twitter means I’ve been locked out because of a glitch in their two-factor authentication. After a decade, nearly 16k followers, and 130k tweets, I’ve got mixed feelings. Hence a rare revival of the blog.

On the one hand, Müsk is trash, and I’d been slowly disengaging from the site since early 2022. But I also wish I could have said farewell on my own terms. There’s a slim chance this post will auto-post to twitter, so perhaps this is it?

Folks, it’s been a blast.

Twitter brought me so much joy, so many friends (so many!), professional collaborations, and wonderful personal connections that will remain forever in my heart.

It made LGBTQ+ STEM into what it is today and brought together a queer science, tech, engineering & maths community. It filled my heart with joy.

Its demise has been sorry to see. Like an old friend who goes off the rails a little too often and with increasing frequency.

While I contemplate the future of things, you can find me over on mastodon.social/@TheLabAndField. And who knows, maybe the L&F blog will see a rejuvenation.

Wishing you all a very merry Christmas, happy Hanukkah, and the warmest of wishes for a better 2023.

Alex

PS: it goes without saying that as I’m locked out, I won’t see any messages, DMs, or anything really. I’m easily found if you need to find me. x

2020 by the numbers

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Read previous years’ By the Numbers: 2019, 201820172016201520142013

Top posts by views

Amusing bird names explained: Fluffy-backed Tit-babbler (2016)
Personal academic websites for faculty & grad students: the why, what, and how (2013)
Free project ideas in ecology & conservation (2020)
What’s in an affiliation? (2016)
Overseas field courses and equity, diversity & inclusion (2020)
How did we learn that birds migrate (and not to the moon)? A stab in the dark (2013)
The advantages of Google Scholar for early-career academics (2013)
Some thoughts on The University (2020)
On finding an error in my own published paper (2016)
Listing grants on one’s CV (2017)

I’m consistently surprised that 2013 opinions on how to build a website has been in the top 10 nearly (if not every) year.

 

18,250(ish)

The number of visitors. About the same as last year. I know that L&F has never been driven by traffic, but it feels increasingly like shouting into the void.

 

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The number of countries those visitors came from (or at least their IP addresses mapped to). Shout out to the one person who visited from Togo, Mozambique, Guernsey, Turks & Caicos Islands, Barbados, Macau SAR China, Antigua & Barbuda, Cayman Islands, Solomon Islands, Maldives, Seychelles, Liechtenstein, Nicaragua, Bahamas, Gambia, Isle of Man, Liberia, St. Martin, Cameroon, Swaziland, Brunei, Bolivia, Rwanda, Jersey, Monaco, Kyrgyzstan, Eritrea, and St. Lucia!

 

0

The number of field trips this year. Thank you, pandemic.

 

Many

Papers coauthored this year. Most not as a result of my massive efforts but the perseverance of others. With the pandemic and museum shutdown, I think I did about 1 day of research between April and October. I definitely dropped the ball on a few as well.

 

505

The number of kms I ran this year. Given that I only started running a year ago, and had a major break in the summer, I’m pretty pleased. Highlights were a 4:47/km pace in April, and a half-marathon in November.

 

7246

The number of emails sent this year. Not counting Teams, Slack, WhatsApp, Signal, Messenger, Instagram DM, Twitter messages, and letters.

 

1

The number of people who found L&F by searching “what came first booby the bird or breasts”

 

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Mental breakdowns this year. End of July. It was not fun. I’m on the way back up, though.

 

and lastly,

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The number of years L&F has been around. From the heady days of 2013 science blogging to the metaphorical desert in which we now find things. There’s less of an appetite for longer science blogging by random people, and L&F has really shifted from a blog about science to a blog about HOW science happens, which is even more niche. Not that it’s all about the clicks, but with so little engagement it’s hard to see the relevance anymore. The Lab and Field will stay up, but don’t expect any more posts, or at least not with any regularity. Subscribe to the RSS feed (if that’s even still a thing), or get updates by email if you’re super keen. Thanks for joining me on the rollercoaster of the last 8 years.

-Alex

Science, people, and surviving in the time of a global pandemic

Well, it’s certainly been a year. Looking back at the last 12 months, it seems unfathomable that anything close to normality could persist, and yet despite lockdowns, a global pandemic, massive curtailing of international travel, and a massive shift in how we work, we try to carry on. Which may not have been the best solution, to be honest. It’s a bit of square peg/round hole. And that is likely to be the source of many of the challenges.

In the early days of lockdown in the UK in March, the message was “be patient, be kind”. But as the months went on, the restless wheels of capitalism started straining and the messaging quickly returned to “Business as Usual”. Even through the summer, there was an expectation from some quarters of pre-pandemic levels of engagement and not a lot of flexibility. Rather than pressing pause on things to let folks get to grips with the global paradigm shift (in the true Kuhnian sense) of how we work as scientists, the emphasis became “get back to normal” when everything about it was far from normal.

For me, had three primary effects. First, I had a mental breakdown in July. Like, properly. Thankfully I have a supportive husband who recognized the signs, and a responsive GP who was able to start me on a treatment regimen. I’ve also benefited from cognitive behavioural therapy. Five months in, and though I wouldn’t say “I’m better”, I certainly feel a bit more resilient. I recently asked on twitter (https://twitter.com/TheLabAndField/status/1333142805640859648)  when the last time was when folks felt “well”, and more than 7/10 responded that it had been sometime before 2020 (with ¼ before 2015). We often talk about cumulative pressures on ecosystems and how one additional threat (be it climate change, an invasive species, or pollution for example) can push species over the edge. Many of us know how they feel, and the COVID-19 pandemic has revealed just how precariously some of us were hanging on.

Add on top of this the summer where “Black Lives Matter” gained more prominence (rightly so), and a year where transphobia reared its ugly head with abandon in the UK (and organizations’ responses to these), and it’s been a particularly tough time for many. We’re all very tired.

Second, science took a MAJOR hiatus. Between May and September, I think I managed about 1 or 2 days of research, which was dedicated to supporting students or collaborators. I’ve had a manuscript come back in January 2020 with “major revisions” that I haven’t even found time to dig into. And that should be OK. But what I think will be particularly challenging is how this year will be evaluated (which is a broader problem in science). Thanks to a network of collaborators and students, and a large backlog of work that happened in December 2019, I’ll probably come out of the year in not too bad a shape in terms of publications. But I’m very lucky. What about the early career postdoc, or the PhD student, or the researcher with caring responsibilities? Just like our desire to “be patient, be kind” fizzled out over the summer, the legacy of remembering that anyone for whom 2020 (and likely 2021) will be used to evaluate for a job, a scholarship, a grant, or a promotion will, I fear, be a fading memory, especially by those who were able to buffer the year more than others.

Which brings me to the third point: compassion for people should be (but isn’t always) paramount. I’ve always sad that good science happens because of good people, but lately I’ve found that it (and many other thing) happens in spite of those for whom compassion and understanding is not in the fore of their mind. Increasingly, process and finance dominate. As an example, I was discussing with a colleague about a potential future event which involved groups of people indoors, which they were adamant happen “before the end of the fiscal year” in March. I was utterly flabbergasted, but equally not surprised in the least. In a year when so many of us have felt so besieged, so beaten down, so mentally drained, and unable to embrace, compassion and inclusion should be driving our conversations. I’ve tried my best to filter out and counter some of these pressures for the folks I work with, and I know my manager has done the same. But this isn’t universal, or I hazard to guess even all that common. And the pandemic of 2020 has pulled back the curtain on the utter absurdity of these artificial constraints, but not for all (and most importantly, seemingly not for those in power).

Overall, 2020 has revealed just how unprepared we were for any disruption to our status quo, as individuals and organizations. What we need isn’t more wellbeing seminars or working groups, but to catch up with the paradigm shift and the new state in which we all find ourselves. One where people come first, processes are in place to serve us (not the other way around), and where we can hopefully thrive again in our infinite wonder.

Queer in STEM ask me anything – another LGBTQ&A

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About 2 years ago, I opened up my inbox for you to ask quite literally anything about being LGBTQ+ in science. Since then, some things have changed in the world, and I’ve had a chance to engage with lots of new folks around equity, diversity, inclusion & access both in science, in the museum, and more broadly.

Pride Month this past June was also exhausting, and I know from speaking with a few people that some of these issues were new to them. That’s fine – we make our own journeys when trying to make our fields, professions and workplaces better. And I know it can be intimidating if this is a new area for you, and you don’t want to “mess up” or get things mixed up.

So what better time than to open up the ol’ inbox again.

So if you’ve got a question about being LGBTQ+ (in STEM or more broadly), you can ask it anonymously using this Google form. I’ll leave it up for the next week, and then compile the answers.

Don’t be shy – I have, almost literally, been asked everything under the sun in the 15 years that I’ve been doing LGBTQ+ education & diversity training in some form. If you want, you can also read a bit about my own journey here.

And now, over to you.